1. |
Closure
03:50
|
|||
This is not me, asking for you back
This is not me
I can't stand the way he holds her
(I lose my composure)
I know that we are over
(but I just want some closure)
This is not me, asking for you back
This is not me I would never do that
This is just my way of saying farewell
How have you been?
It's been a couple years since we have
talked and you look well and I'm just wondering
Do you ever wonder where we would be if you still loved me?
I don't mean to go on about it
But I don't feel like myself anymore without it
I just wish you would see the way I hate the way you look at me
My dear old friend
I didn't think I'd miss you this much
it's such a shame that you had to leave
I think I'll always wonder where we would be
if it weren't for me
I don't mean to go on about it
but I can't beat myself up anymore about it
I just need you to see that I'm
sorry about Reverie
One more time before it's over
One last time to feel some closure
|
||||
2. |
Mt. Misery
04:53
|
|||
If you want, we can go
anywhere you wanna go
if you say, we should stay
we'll stay here, forever
words will never be enough to
say everything that's in my heart
and this just can't wait
Our lives aren't long enough for me to learn
everything I want to know about you.
My heart's on my sleeve and your love is the only thing that stops the bleeding
It's been a long time since I have felt like this
and I'll admit that for a while I thought despair was it
It's not a fine line, between the daylight and darkness
Misery is a mountain and now i'm climbing over it
Blood is filling up the empty space
soaking through to every page
I feel like I've lost myself
to the way you whisper my name
to the way that you say you need me
So Much (In the worst of ways)
I have wasted so much breath
saying I'm sorry in the worst of ways
I have wasted so much time
feeling sorry every god damn day
I just want to stop this feeling
find me at the top of mt misery
I need your love to clot this bleeding
find me at the top of Mt. Misery
|
||||
3. |
I'm Over Me
03:39
|
|||
This isn't what I wanted this to be
It's so impossibly
hard to be just who I thought i'd be
cuz' every time I finally
get to where I wanna be
I'm over me
I'm over me
It's hard to be just who I thought i'd be
cuz' every time i finally
get to where I wanna be
I'm over me
Like water slowly seeping between the cracks of fingers, most of me is wasted
and I hate it but maybe just this once I could actually fucking finish something instead of wasting all my breath and in the end, just giving up.
like a castaway on a raft, scratching and scribbling the last
of his so called sanity away on a scrap, he stuffs it down into a glass
bottle then throws it as he laughs,
like the oceans going to save him from it's unforgiving grasp
I don't wanna be him
but I'm floating out to sea
I don't wanna be him
but it's too late for me
Oh! Please don't look for me my dear
It is dark out here, it is dark out here
my lungs have been filling up for years
I am drowning here, I am drowning here
Oh! Please don't follow me my dear
I don't know what i'd do I don't know what I'd do
if the freezing water swallowed you
like it's swallowing me
like it's swallowing me
I'll never forget that day, I was walking along the beach at the coast
watching the waves, slowly roll in, swelling as they came closer
collapsing in on themselves in a display of crashing white, salty mist and spray
and there in the receding wake, lay a bottle, inside it a piece of parchment, old and stained. I gazed around to see if i was alone there, as if the presence of that bottled message was some kind of secret I didn't want to share
it was my moment and mine alone, and so I pulled the cork from the bottle and took out the note and there in the centre
in tiny, desperate, scrawling letters was written but one word: hope.
|
||||
4. |
1996
04:20
|
|||
I can't keep hating you like this
I don't even want to
so let's forget it, and let's forgive
I'm so tired of fighting. I'm finding the fight
is inside and I'm losing it
1996, classroom murmurs, chalkboards desks and kids
I was writing a letter, to myself I don't remember anymore what I said
but I wonder if I knew back then, that I was writing to an enemy
to someone who would later only let me down
would I have found it in my heart to forgive myself?
could I have maybe turned the future around?
I know it's hard to understand right now
but I am doing my best to work things out with myself
I know that hating me is bringing us down
I wanna forgive myself but i don't know how
1996, so many worlds away from this
I had that fucked up dream again
that i was playing with my kids
If I'm dreaming promise that you'll wake me
If the night comes calling it'll take me whole
If i'm dreaming promise that you'll shake me
until i dream no more
|
||||
5. |
The Coast Pt. 2
03:03
|
|||
I don't see you anymore
this box of time worn letters is all I have to remind me
I don't sleep anymore
I lie under the stars, just thinking about you
do you lie awake at night
thinking of me?
would you run for days,
through every street?
Just to hear my voice,
just to feel me breathe?
If the stars come out and you can't find sleep
would you call my name?
would you run to me?
Do you miss me anymore?
Do you think back to the coast?
does our old song still remind you?
was the promise you made to me, one that you couldn't keep?
So go on and put all of the blame on us
treat me just like the coast and leave me here to rust
I know that you think that you're so fucked up
but the only mistake that you made was giving up
and it's ok if this is really what you needed
if a change of scenery will finally give you back your reason to live
and everyday away from you it gets a little easier
to get back to the way I was before you made me fall in love
|
||||
6. |
Static
04:38
|
|||
into the glass she stares at her liquid heart
a blood red reminder, of the abuse of her time
drink it down, drink it down
act like nothing even matters, like everything is static
on the winds of a granite sky is carried the scent tonight
of careful attention, rehearsed lines and hopeful fire.
through emerald winks and glass clinks and strings of gold that
shimmer and swing as though they're dying to tell their stories
of death, blood, guts, and glory
of carats, cuts and quarries
this is desperation
(not where she wanted to be)
What's another wasted night?
One more drink will put me right where I want to be
I can't help the way I feel
Darling can't you see that lately
when I'm awake I'm still asleep
As they sit together on the couch in his apartment
her lit cigarette burns steady into the evening as it darkens
she tells him where shes been, and how her tangled story started
forgets to ash as ashes fall silent to the carpet
his hand is on her thigh and she can feel him softly squeezing
conversation turns to silence as listening turns to reading
another notch is added to the score the city's keeping
chests heaving with the rhythm of the city's heaving breathing
She smokes cigarettes and the smoke rises above their heads
and he wonders how many nights she's spent in someone else's bed
like nothing even matters
like everything is static
|
||||
7. |
Stabbed
06:03
|
|||
Everything I know
I've learned from ghosts
I don't listen well the first time
If we could talk, I'd just wanna thank you
for everything I never heard you say
You showed me a different shade of the grey
always more to the story than what meets the eye
trust me I know the way that feels now
trust me I know the way that feels now
Some days I feel so small
like nothing that I do even matters at all
they say it gets better if you just stay strong
but the truth is I'm tired of just holding on
I didn't know you all that well but I remember
the detention after school and all the hell you gave the teachers who
would always try to stick it to you, but you never let them win
you were resolute, resolute to the end
A violent confrontation, is what police say
resulted in the death of a young man on tuesday night
he got stabbed and he bled out on the way to the hospital
they lost him, he lost it all
|
||||
8. |
Smoke
04:46
|
|||
I
I would write the sweetest song for you
If you ask
I would steal the moon and stars out of the
sky
darling you'll never want for anything again
but
I can't get out
I can't even pretend
I can't get out
please understand
I'd make you fall for me over and over again
but I can't get out of bed
Leave me, and I will let you go
The fire inside me is burning low
I'm so surrounded but still so alone
and it all goes up in smoke
I wanna drown in the blue of your eyes
I wanna move, but I feel paralyzed
I wanna ask you for help, but I'm terrified
you say you love me and you'll never leave
but I'm afraid you might
If love is a song
then I don't don't know the words
I'm only in it for the chorus
I skip over the verse
Streetlight metronomes are counting beats
to the song this city screams
I can see the fires burning but I cannot feel their heat
It's like the walls are burning down around me but I'm still alseep
If I could feel anything at all maybe I could finally stop this dream
but I can't get out of bed.
|
||||
9. |
Aftermath
02:54
|
|||
I am like the walls of this apartment
all the furniture and every memory all dearly departed
and whats left is just the heart
without the blood
it's cold and hard
dearly beloved we are gathered here today to close the coffin
I was so upset I think I lost my mind
and I don't think it's coming back this time
I know I let you down but when you left it left me broken
you put the fire out and all our dreams went up in smoke and I
don't know if it will ever burn again but I am hoping
that the part of me that made me feel alive isn't gone for good
I wanna know what's after the aftermath
(I've been searching through the rubble just to
see if I survived the collapse)
My fire is gone, but I want to get it back
(I've been picking up the pieces that I broke into the day that you left)
Leave
I hope that you become
the person that you always wanted to be
Forget about the past, forget about the failure
Forget about me
Maybe this emptiness I feel will be just what I needed
Maybe I can still reach the future I see in my dreams
|
Streaming and Download help
If you like you and me in reverie, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp